Never Lose Sight
The first initiation of the emerging shaman is solitude & shadow work. To unlock and face the traumas causing the blockages in one’s own current life. When spirit deems sufficient wisdom has been integrated you will then be divinely guided to explore & work to release blockages, beliefs and programming from previous lives and childhood still surfacing in this timeline.
It is in my own experience that the healthy tools (crystals, plant medicine, energy modalities, etc) and practices that you adopt & align /cross paths with to heal yourself will also put you on the path to becoming who you are meant to be.
It wasn’t until I was in a position to understand what I had been through, why, and what it took to BEGIN to heal all of it that I was then very swiftly guided into Peruvian Andean Shamanism in such a way that when I am asked now to recall how I got there I almost don’t know or remember!
I just woke up that day booked my tickets and went!
As a child around 8 years old I found my first amethyst crystal on the side of the road whilst riding bikes in the street with my sister. I knew instantly it was special and it must have been a powerful moment because my sister also remembers that day.
I was born obsessed with animals and worshiped nature, plants and loved my rocks and crystals; i despised organized religion… earth and the sun were my religion, often referring to myself as a “sun worshiper” over the years consciously unknowing that one day I would end up finding the path of the Inca Shaman – Children of the Sun!
I grew up in a very loving and supportive but strict family, I played sports and did all the “normal” things but deep down in my heart I never really felt that I fit in and I always gravitated towards and maintained my interest in the esoteric and natural therapies. I am lucky enough to have had a Yia Yia (Cypriot grandmother) that read Greek coffee cups and was very clairvoyant so I knew i was not alone!
Then, 15 years ago I began a journey that I can honestly say has changed my life and myself forever. It was amazing, thrilling and exciting, and then the last 5 years were painful and very, very dark. Oh, so dark.
In 2007 At 27 /28 years of age (yep right in Saturn’s return territory !!) I cancelled my impending wedding, soon after learned hard painful lessons about perspective, false narratives spread by much loved family, judgement, narcissistic abuse, loyalty (or lack thereof) & betrayal, chronic pain the list goes on and on.
It was in 2016 that I was injured at work and there and then after 10 years working a 6 figure job and settling on a mortgage only 2 weeks earlier my whole reality came crashing down. For nearly 3 years I was stuck at home in chronic pain, no tangible daily purpose and potentially about to lose everything I worked for. A mega super charged dark night of the soul!
I never lost sight of the light no matter how small the glimmer. I knew deep down that it and I were part of a higher calling, a bigger reason and that all would be revealed when the time was right. Divine timing and patience what a cocktail.! I kept faith in my crew above to protect me and reveal to me what I needed and when. Trust and faith are mega lessons in their own right.
Even during the times when I had no obvious tangible daily ‘purpose’ and no one would have known nor would it matter to anyone if I got out of bed that day (in a general sense my family obviously cared immensely) my curiosity for how it would all end up playing out just kept me going. ‘Checking out’ wasn’t an option karmically for me because I knew it only meant coming right back into a new meat suit to do it all again just in a different physical form with a different family.
Healthy Tools
It is in my own experience that the healthy tools (crystals, plant medicine, energy modalities, etc) and practices that you adopt & align /cross paths with to heal yourself will also put you on the path to becoming who you are meant to be.
It wasn’t until I was in a position to understand what I had been through, why, and what it took to BEGIN to heal all of it that I was then very swiftly guided into Peruvian Andean Shamanism in such a way that when I am asked now to recall how I got there I almost don’t know or remember!
I just woke up that day booked my tickets and went!
During this time I have only ever seen 3 people in my life for spiritual guidance and some development. A numerologist and tarot wizard William, an Indian clairvoyant and healer Rishi (both in Perth Western Australia ) and both I met back in 2007 just after I cancelled my wedding. William seeing very quickly my path and gifts swiftly and so graciously passed me over to Rishi who taught me meditation techniques and on occasion did some readings for me.
The third is an amazing crystal healer Gabrielle who I met in just prior to 2016 here in QLD because I was always at Markets and holistic expos buying her clearly superior quality ethically sourced crystals. She wasn’t like the other ‘crystal people’ and I was lucky enough to secure a spot in her very last crystal healing workshop to learn the basics and some amazing layouts and techniques.
I joined mainly out of curiosity because up until this point I was self taught by way of crystals using intuition for what they did and books for identification and asking questions to the people I would buy from and just wanted to do something formal for a change!
I remember sitting in the course watching Gabs and her helpers and daring to dream about what it takes to work for someone like that!
I have never been to random clairvoyants or tarot readers for guidance nor to any healers of any modality for healing other than the shaman who have initiated me. I haven’t to this day had a crystal healing session done on me by someone other than myself. This was not a decision I made I just instinctively didn’t want anyone in my energy field and to this day believe I was highly and divinely protected by only having the very few mentors that I have.
An Ongoing Journey
In late 2018, after I regained some physical freedom, I took myself off to Peru and did my first 2 initiations with theQ’eros shamanof the Andes in Cusco.
I came home and practiced what I learned for a year before going back with my experience and practices to be initiated for the third and final time as Pampaq Maseyoq Shaman. Part of the family of the “Children of the Lightning – the Alto Mesayoq. The only way to be initiated to Alto Mesayoq from here as a Pampaq Mesayoq is to be struck my lightning and survive it! Time will tell …
Now days at home on the Sunshine Coast, Queensland, Australia, I do on occasion try to attend a local holotrophic rebirth breathwork session, to assist in healing myself and make sure I’m continuing to face and release my own layers of stuff and move any stagnant energy.
I use crystals on myself ALL THE TIME and cleanse heavily and ground after every session.
There’s nothing pretty about the growth and healing process. It isn’t all candles, crystals and herbal teas though they do help A LOT!.
It’s accountability which can lead to feelings of guilt (the lowest vibration on the ladder) and drilling to the core of the traumas and issues affecting you is very intense and triggering, you’re basically very briefly re-living the trauma as it comes up to be released.
You then have to face the fact that those you held so high and respected the most are not perfect and come with their own traumas that are yet to be healed that they have allowed to bleed onto you.
In many cases your healing and choices to live a life that they didn’t will make people unconsciously turn on you as they battle their own insecurities and regrets triggered by your choices to do what they can’t, didn’t and most probably won’t. This is not your concern.
Be the best version of you that you can!
Let it Come ~ Let it Be ~ Let it Go
Healing deeply will leave you at times feeling uncomfortable, tired, overwhelmed, underwhelmed, lost, disturbed and even scared but this is all ok and will absolutely pass. This being said It will also most certainly give you many more moments of pure love, joy, happiness, peace and deep contentment and acceptance.
LET IT COME ~ LET IT BE ~ LET IT GO
It’s not so much what you get from doing the deep healing work it’s what you become for it.
So here I am, grateful and humbled by every challenge, lesson, tear and dark night and what they have taught me. I’m on my path of happiness and healing and I want to help others to do the same. If you are feeling the need for a clear out and re start I can help with Andean Shamanic cleansing and healing rituals.